Saturday, May 12, 2012

Good News!!

Well, at the end of this month I will be 1 year free of co-dependant relationships!  That is good news! I have not been free sense jr highschool......I refuse to tell my age, but that is a long time! I have had a couple of set backs, got mad at God, and struggled through parts of this past year.  But, in all honesty, I have never really been this free, for this long, in my life.  Even though it has been a tough year, I still feel chains falling off of me with each day I move forward.  There is a part of me that is really afraid to announce this. I still look over my shoulder and ask myself, "Is this really happening?"  I am still not as strong as I wish to be, but I am also not in the same place of weakness that I used to be. I am moving forward. My goal right now is to address a couple more of my addictions like food and sugar.  Eventually, I want to be baptized (again) in the church that I have been attending for over a yr now. I have already been baptized, but there is something about that public declaration that did not have the same meaning to me that it now carries.  I see the cross through a different set of eyes. I see glimpses of Jesus that I have never identified with until now. I still have mountains to climb, but I am learning that this is one step at a time. One day at a time. One moment at a time.